Goodbye child I’ll never have
I really did love you
And hope we would’ve had
more time – more time than
never – to share.
Just so you know I worked hard for you
so hard that I didn’t have any time
to even decide when to let you
come into this world.
However, I didn’t want you to live like I had to live – poor and destitute and on food
stamps for over 10 years of my life.
I wanted so much better for you than my parents ever could’ve given me.
But now I’ll never know what I could’ve given you because I never had the chance
to even conceive you let alone get to know you.
I meant well, though.
I wanted the best for you, even if it meant you’d never be born – never exist.
Goodbye child I’ll never have. Goodbye.